Is it possible to be bored and anxious at the same time? Because that’s kind of how I’m feeling right now. The bored part seems really strange to me. I’ve been running around for the past month or so like a chicken with my head cut off, so the idea of actually having spare time for myself seemed fantastic about a week ago. But now that I have it, I’m sitting around freaking out about what I need to do next. I thought I’d be able to take some time to relax, and to enjoy relaxing. Lord knows I’ve had plenty of entertaining things that I wanted to do/see/read that I put on hold for my studying. And indeed I feel really burned out as though I need to relax. But instead of feeling a kind of calm relief, I find myself feeling nervous and distracted. I spend a lot of time just nervously flitting around from website to website, looking for distraction, rather than settling down to enjoy something I’ve missed these past weeks. I’m almost starting to think that I should have scheduled a week vacation right after my comps so that I could decompress completely. Then maybe going back to business as usual wouldn’t feel so damn unusual!